ultrasound

We had the half way chemo point on February 3rd and I had my ultrasound scheduled for the 13th.  Well, the second snow storm plowed in and everything was closed that Thursday.  I was so bummed because I was dying to know if the tumor had shrunk.  We had to wait all weekend until Monday, the 17th for the rescheduled appointment.  I asked all of my Facebook friends to pray with me specifically that the tumor was no longer there.  When I sat with the ultrasound technician, it was pretty nerve racking, but she kept moving the wand and couldn't find anything at all!  I told her that's exactly what we were praying for and she said it must have worked!  I was so excited!  Then the doctor came in and bursted my bubble with the fact that cancer cells could still be there, but it's still a good sign.  We also talked about how I need to have a hysterectomy by the age of 35.  She was very skeptical of me having my ovaries removed at such a young age and then potentially having no added estrogen.  Because I'm BRCA2 positive, I still have a chance of developing breast cancer again even with the 5% remaining breast tissue.  The surgeon can only guarantee she's removing 95% of the tissue.  If I take estrogen the rest of my life, there is a slight chance I could develop a hormone based breast cancer and the estrogen could speed it up.  But the alternative would be no estrogen and I supposedly would not have a good quality of life.  It could be terrible on my heart and my bones.  Arhhh!  This was all just too much information to handle.
I ran into Lisa at Bible Study the next morning and she felt that she needed to come pray over me again now that we have a lot more information.  Rachael, Judy, and Lisa prayed with Matt and I the following Friday afternoon.  Lisa said that when she was praying beforehand, God revealed to her a few things regarding me.  He said...
A gift
I have removed them (The two tumors on the left side.  She had no clue there were two)
I'm Serious
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I know this may sound crazy to many people, but I truly can't care what people think anymore.  I believe that the God of the universe cares about me and is using me to further his kingdom.  I also truly believe that he has healed me.  I am continuing to finish the chemo and plan to have the surgeries because he has provided knowledgeable doctors to guide me, but I AM HEALED. God is so cool and it feels amazing to be a part of his work.  I consider this whole situation a gift.  I think He's just getting started with me.  I'm just trying to be available and ready.