We got the results back from my MRI on Thursday morning. Dr Lairet called personally. This is never a good thing. She said there are now two spots on the left breast and pre-cancerous cells on the right. I also have a swollen lymph node on the left and my chest bone cavity. Looks enlarged. The lymph node could either be swollen from the biopsy or it means that it has spread to the lymph system. The bones would be terrible. I literally fell to the ground crying and wailing. Why?!!!! Poor Carmen saw me and was so freaked out. Matt and I were devastated. I ran down to Pam and she just held me while I cried. If it's in the bones, I read that's a typical 1-2 year life expectancy with max 10-20 years. All I want is to see my babies grow up. We gathered ourselves and drove down to the Breast Care Specialist in Atlanta. After a super long wait, we finally met with Dr Simpson a breast specialist surgeon. She truly thought it hasn't moved to the bones, but ordered a bone scan for Friday morning. She said that I needed an oncologist appointment and mentioned Dr Bowen. I explained that I had been trying to get into Dr Bowen all week, but they said she was on vacation. She looked at me and said, "No she's not on vacation, she is in San Antionio at a breast cancer conference and will be back Friday night. I just spoke with her and her office will call you to schedule an appointment on Monday." By the time we were driving home, her office called. I'm seeing her and another oncologist at emery this Monday. I have a pet-scan for this Tuesday afternoon to check all other organs and another biopsy on the right side Tuesday morning. All of these got scheduled that day. Praise The Lord!
Thursday night we were supposed to have our small group Christmas party at the Jansen's house. It was 5 couples praying over us boldly for God's will to be done and this cancer not to have spread. Amazing! As anyone can imagine, I could barely sleep that night. Matt and i prayed on our knees that night and the next morning before the appointment. I had to be at the bone scan the next morning at 7:30am. My wonderful friend, Holly, came and sat with me. It literally made my day to have her there. She held my hand while they injected the dye. I had to go home and wait until 11:30 to actually have the scan. I stopped by my friend, Charity's house and just cried and talked. Matt and I went back for the scan and then waited anxiously for the results. I was putting Hudson down for a nap around 2 that afternoon when Matt ran in. This will always be a moment in my life that I will never forget. His hair was sticking straight up from his hands running through it. His eyes were so teary eyed, and he was shaking yelling, "It's clean! You're bones are clean!" I had to call the nurse back to actually hear it for myself. Praise God our healer!!!
Matt and I have learned a lot in just this one week. The main thing is that we are not in control. There is absolutely nothing I can do to change this situation. This is only in God's hands. I feel like now I am actually able to fight this through Christ. Let's do this God! I'm ready and willing. There may be many more big hurdles, but I've got the creator of the universe on my side to get me through each one!
