It's over

I went to the gynecologist today for a yearly check up. She was the one that I went to when I originally found my tumor. She's great! She checked me and said there is no reason why I can't start holding Hudson slowly. I was so relieved! I feel like I've missed out on my baby's first year. I ran home and picked him up and swung around. It was hilarious because Matt started yelling at me. It took a lot of convincing him that I'm ok. I just cried. It's over!! It's all over! No one can truly understand how difficult this entire cancer situation has been for us, mostly Matt. He had to be the main provider, childcare giver, and my nurse. God healed me for a reason, I just need to live each day desiring what he wants for me. I pray every day for the Holy Spirit to lead me. 

I got back in my car to meet a friend for lunch and heard this playing on the cd, "take my life and let it be for your glory" over and over. I just knew it was God. He wants our whole lives. Why not let our creator control our lives?  I am forever grateful to my God for letting me live a few more years with my family. 

And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen. (1 Peter 5:10-11)